I decided to change up my saying. I've had some experiences these last months that have helped me on my journey in life. I read the book "Forget Me Nots" by Dieter F. Uchtdorf and it made me stop and think a little bit that truly when we stop focusing so much on the end goal and enjoy each day and experience that we are given we are much happier. I think it's interesting that after a trial or experience we can look back and see that the path that we followed was necessary to help us obtain the goal or blessing. My experience these past few months are a perfect example for this. Luckily this time I was able to except very early in the process and began to see everything unfolding while it was happening.
I was just about finished up with school. I had talked to my councilor and worked it out that if I did a little heavier semester I could be graduated in one more semester. It was going to be 20 credits. My brother had just gotten me on as an intern with his company and I had it all worked out to graduate in a semester and then start working full time at that company. I don't particularly enjoy sitting in classes being lectured too and I struggle staying focused and on task so to say I was excited to finish is a complete understatement. My major is technology and engineering education and I decided a while back that I didn't want to teach. My major has been working on splitting the major so there is a teaching route and a non-teaching route. It was ok'd by the vice-president, but in his wanting to see if any other majors wanted to do the same and split, the split for my major was put on hold and has been for the past year. I had been hoping it would go through the system and I could graduate in that major, but it wasn't looking good so I talked to the councilor and was approved to finish all of the classes, but to be able to graduate without doing student teaching. I finished the paperwork and sent it in. A few days later I was called back into the office and was told that there was some complications. It turned out the the same people who have been holding up the splitting of my major deleted the graduation code about a year and a half ago without telling anyone making it impossible for me to graduate with my major without doing student teaching. My councilor was furious they didn't tell anyone and also the dean for my major. I was given two options. I could finish taking the classes that I was, but my diploma would say my major was secondary education non-licensure or I could finish taking the classes and do the student teaching and graduate in my major. I was stuck in a bind. I wanted to get a technical job and to have a secondary education non-licensure degree would do me no good. To anyone that shows I'm not really qualified for anything. Then there was no way I was going to take 20 credits while working to have to take another semester later while loosing my job since they don't allow you to student teach while working. There was no way I was going to do that. So I decided to step away from school for a while until they get things worked out. How long will it take I don't know.
To get away from school for a while seems against everything that I've been taught my whole life. All of my brothers and sisters have graduated from college and many have gone on to masters, law degrees, or phd's, but here is when I began to see the path laid before me.
I currently am working on a house to flip, but for the past month or so I have been getting a feeling like I should keep the house. I am currently on a construction loan and it ends in a couple months. Then there are some other aspects of my life that I've wanted to get back on track. I was running myself ragged by working full time while going to school and then doing some sides remodeling jobs. Because the mess happened with my major and me graduating I was able to go on full time sooner at the company I am interning for. With me going on full time I will have a good enough credit and pay to keep my house. With only one job I will be able to focus more on the things I need to keep in order like my health. So many doors have now opened up that I couldn't have dreamed of before. I look back now and am grateful for the mess with my major. The day I was told I was annoyed and was like great here is another road block that I need to go around. This new path that I've been traveling on is going to help me reach my dreams faster than I could have imagined.

For a spiritual thought I had as well. I was talking to one of my friends. He was concerned about getting some help. I told him that sometimes we have to except help. I thought of our Savior and how in life He teaches us to walk. Once we are walking He walks beside us, and then when we are to tired and can't walk anymore He carries us. The scripture came to mind. Matthew 18:3 - And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. I thought of parents and their children. At a young age they are carried until they are able to learn to walk. The parents are by their side the whole time encouraging them and there to catch them if they fall. The children are excited to be able to walk and run around and around, but eventually get tired and need to be carried. Are we like the little children and humble enough to be carried when we need to be?


So a side thought now pertaining to this last post I have been listing to "The Invention of Wings" and had the thought, knowledge is freedom. I love this thought. Truly the more we know the more free we become. One of the greatest blessings I've gained is the desire to learn. I was aware of how much time I was spending watching movies and television and when I first moved into my house about a year ago I didn't get the internet because I knew I'd spend to much time watching movies and browsing. I decided to begin reading. Books are amazing. I think I've read 20 or so this past year and some of which were 800 pages or more. I've started listening to books on tape and listening on my way to work. These stories have opened up my mind of which I am grateful.